The Liar Page 2

  She sighed, noting another, dated almost four years ago. She started to toss it aside, stopped and frowned. She didn’t know this doctor. Of course, they’d been living in that big high-rise in Houston then, and who could keep track of doctors the way they’d moved every year—sometimes less than that. But this doctor was in New York City.

  “That can’t be right,” she murmured. “Why would Richard go to a doctor in New York for a . . .”

  Everything went cold. Her mind, her heart, her belly. Her fingers trembled as she lifted the paper, brought it closer as if the words would change with the distance.

  But they stayed the same.

  Richard Andrew Foxworth had elective surgery, performed by Dr. Dipok Haryana at Mount Sinai Medical Center, on July 12, 2011. A vasectomy.

  He’d had a vasectomy, without telling her. Callie barely two months old and he’d fixed it so there could be no more children. He’d pretended to want more when she’d begun talking about another. He’d agreed to get checked, as she got checked, when, after a year of trying, she hadn’t conceived.

  She could hear him now.

  You’ve just got to relax, Shelby, for God’s sake. If you’re worried and tense about it, it’ll never happen.

  “No, it’ll never happen, because you fixed it so it couldn’t. You lied to me, even about that. Lied when my heart broke every month.

  “How could you? How could you?”

  She pushed away from the desk, pressed her fingers to her eyes. July, mid-July, and Callie about eight weeks old. A business trip, he’d said, that’s right, she remembered very well. To New York—hadn’t lied about the where.

  She hadn’t wanted to take the baby to the city—he’d known she wouldn’t. He’d made all the arrangements. Another surprise for her. He’d sent her back to Tennessee on a private plane, her and her baby.

  So she could spend some time with her family, he’d said. Show off the baby, let her mother and grandmother spoil her and spoil Callie for a couple of weeks.

  She’d been so happy, so grateful, she thought now. And all the while he’d just been getting her out of the way so he could make certain he didn’t father another child.

  She walked back to the desk, picked up the photo she’d had framed for him. One of her and Callie, taken by her brother Clay on that very trip. A thank-you gift he’d seemed to value as he’d kept it on his desk—wherever they’d been—ever since.

  “Another lie. Just another lie. You never loved us. You couldn’t have lied and lied and lied if you’d loved us.”

  On the rage of betrayal she nearly smashed the frame on the desk. Only the face of her baby stopped her. She set it down again, as carefully as she might priceless and fragile porcelain.

  Then she lowered to the floor—she couldn’t sit behind that desk, not now. She sat on the floor with harsh colors against hard white walls, rocking, weeping. Weeping not because the man she’d loved was dead, but because he never existed.

  • • •

  THERE WAS NO TIME TO SLEEP. Though she disliked coffee, she made herself an oversized mug from Richard’s Italian machine—and hit it with a double shot of espresso.

  Headachy from the crying jag, wired up on caffeine, she combed through every paper in the box, making piles.

  Hotel and restaurant receipts when viewed with newly opened eyes told her he hadn’t just lied, but had cheated.

  Room service charges too high for a man alone. Add a receipt for a silver bangle from Tiffany’s—which he’d never given to her—from the same trip, another five thousand at La Perla—the lingerie he preferred she wear—from another trip, a receipt for a weekend spent in a bed-and-breakfast in Vermont when he’d said he was going to finalize a deal in Chicago, and it began to solidify.

  Why had he kept all this, all this proof of his lies and infidelity? Because, she realized, she’d trusted him.

  Not even that, she thought, accepting. She’d suspected an affair, and he’d likely known she had. He kept it because he’d thought her too obedient to poke through his personal records.

  And she had been.

  The other lives he’d lived, he’d locked away. She hadn’t known where to find the key, would never have questioned him—and he’d known it.

  How many other women? she wondered. Did it matter? One was too many, and any of them would have been more sophisticated, more experienced and knowledgeable than the girl from the little mountain town in Tennessee he’d knocked up when she was nineteen, dazzled and foolish.

  Why had he married her?

  Maybe he’d loved her, at least a little. Wanted her. But she hadn’t been enough, not enough to keep him happy, keep him true.

  And did that matter, really? He was dead.

  Yes, she thought. Yes, it mattered.

  He’d made a fool of her, left her humiliated. Left her with a financial burden that could hound her for years and jeopardize their daughter’s future.

  It damn well mattered.

  She spent another hour going systematically through the office. The safe had already been cleared. She’d known about it, though she hadn’t had the combination. She’d given the lawyers permission to have it opened.

  They’d taken most of the legal documents, but there was five thousand in cash. She took it out, set it aside. Callie’s birth certificate, their passports.

  She opened Richard’s, studied his photo.

  So handsome. Smooth and polished, like a movie star, with his rich brown hair and tawny eyes. She’d so wished Callie had inherited his dimples. She’d been so charmed by those damn dimples.

  She set the passports aside. However unlikely it was she’d use hers or Callie’s, she’d pack them up. She’d destroy Richard’s. Or—maybe ask the lawyers if that’s what she should do.

  She found nothing hidden away, but she’d go through everything again before she shredded or filed it all away again in packing boxes.

  Hyped on coffee and grief, she walked through the house, crossed the big two-story foyer, took the curving stairs up, the thick socks she wore soundless on the hardwood.

  She checked on Callie first, went into the pretty room, leaned down to kiss her daughter’s cheek before tucking the blankets around her little girl’s favored butt-in-the-air sleeping position.

  Leaving the door open, she walked down the hall to the master suite.

  She hated the room, she thought now. Hated the gray walls, the black leather headboard, the sharp lines of the black furniture.

  She hated it more now, knowing she’d made love with him in that bed after he’d made love with other women, in other beds.

  As her belly twisted she realized she needed to go to the doctor herself. She needed to be sure he hadn’t passed anything on to her. Don’t think now, she told herself. Just make the appointment tomorrow, and don’t think now.

  She went to his closet—one nearly as big as the whole of the bedroom she’d had back in Rendezvous Ridge, back home.

  Some of the suits had barely been worn, she thought. Armani, Versace, Cucinelli. Richard had leaned toward Italian designers for suits. And shoes, she thought, taking a pair of black Ferragamo loafers off the shoe shelf, turning them over to study the soles.

  Barely scuffed.

  Moving through, she opened a cupboard, took out suit bags.

  She’d take as many as she could manage to the consignment shop in the morning.

  “Should have done it already,” she muttered.

  But first there’d been shock and grief, then the lawyers, the accountants, the government agent.

  She went through the pockets of a gray pinstripe to be certain they were empty, transferred it to the bag. Five a bag, she calculated. Four bags for the suits, then another five—maybe six—for jackets and coats. Then shirts, casual pants.

  The mindless work kept her calm; the gradual clearing of space
lightened her heart, a little.

  She hesitated when she got to the dark bronze leather jacket. He’d favored it, had looked so good in the aviator style and the rich color. It was, she knew, one of the few gifts she’d given him that he’d really liked.

  She stroked one of the sleeves, buttery soft, supple, and nearly gave in to the sentiment to set it aside, keep it, at least for a while.

  Then she thought of the doctor’s receipt and dug ruthlessly through the pockets.

  Empty, of course, he’d been careful to empty his pockets every night, toss any loose change in the glass dish on his dresser. Phone in the charger, keys in the dish by the front door or hung in the cabinet in his office. Never left anything in pockets to weigh them down, spoil the line, be forgotten.

  But as she gave the pockets a squeeze—a habit she’d picked up from her mother on washing day—she felt something. She checked the pocket again, found it empty. Pushed her fingers in again, turned the pocket inside out.

  A little hole in the lining, she noted. Yes, he had favored the jacket.

  She carried the jacket back into the bedroom, got her manicure scissors out of her kit. Carefully, she widened the hole, telling herself she’d stitch it up later, before she bagged it for sale.

  Slipping her fingers in the opening, she drew out a key.

  Not a door key, she thought, turning it in the light. Not a car key. A bank box.

  But what bank? And what was in it? Why have a bank box when he had a safe right in his office?

  She should probably tell the lawyers, she thought. But she wasn’t going to. For all she knew, he had a ledger in there listing all the women he’d slept with in the past five years, and she’d had enough humiliation.

  She’d find the bank, and the box, and see for herself.

  They could take the house, the furniture, the cars—the stocks, bonds, money that hadn’t been nearly what Richard had told her. They could take the art, the jewelry, the chinchilla jacket he’d given her for their first—and last—Christmas in Pennsylvania.

  But she’d hold on to what was left of her pride.

  • • •

  SHE WOKE FROM SHIVERY, disturbing dreams to the insistent tugging on her hand.

  “Mama, Mama, Mama. Wake up!”

  “What?” She didn’t even open her eyes, just reached down, pulled her little girl onto the bed with her. Snuggled right in.

  “Morning time.” Callie sang it. “Fifi’s hungry.”

  “Mm.” Fifi, Callie’s desperately beloved stuffed dog, always woke hungry. “Okay.” But she snuggled another minute.

  At some point she’d stretched out, fully clothed, on top of the bed, pulled the black cashmere throw over herself and dropped off. She’d never convince Callie—or Fifi—to cuddle up for another hour, but she could stall for a few minutes.

  “Your hair smells so good,” Shelby murmured.

  “Callie’s hair. Mama’s hair.”

  Shelby smiled at the tug on hers. “Just the same.”

  The deep golden red had passed down from her mother’s side. From the MacNee side. As had the nearly unmanageable curls, which—as Richard preferred the sleek and smooth—she’d had blown out and straightened every week.

  “Callie’s eyes. Mama’s eyes.”

  Callie pulled Shelby’s eye open with her fingers—the same deep blue eyes that read almost purple in some lights.

  “Just the same,” Shelby began, then winced when Callie poked at her eye.

  “Red.”

  “I bet. What does Fifi want for breakfast?” Five more minutes, Callie thought. Just five.

  “Fifi wants . . . candy!”

  The utter glee in her daughter’s voice had Shelby opening her bloodshot blue eyes. “Is that so, Fifi?” Shelby turned the plush, cheerful face on the pink poodle in her direction. “Not a chance.”

  She rolled Callie over, tickled her ribs and, despite the headache, reveled in the joyful squeals.

  “Breakfast it is.” She scooped Callie up. “Then we’ve got places to go, my little fairy queen, and people to see.”

  “Marta? Is Marta coming?”

  “No, baby.” She thought of the nanny Richard had insisted on. “Remember how I told you Marta can’t come anymore?”

  “Like Daddy,” Callie said as Shelby carried her downstairs.

  “Not exactly. But I’m going to fix us a fabulous breakfast. You know what’s almost as good as candy for breakfast?”

  “Cake!”

  Shelby laughed. “Close. Pancakes. Puppy dog pancakes.”

  With a giggle, Callie laid her head on Shelby’s shoulder. “I love Mama.”

  “I love Callie,” Shelby replied, and promised herself she’d do whatever she had to do to give Callie a good, secure life.

  • • •

  AFTER BREAKFAST, she helped her daughter dress, bundled them both up. She’d enjoyed the snow at Christmas, had barely noticed it in January, after Richard’s accident.

  But now it was March, and she was thoroughly sick of it, and the bitter air that showed no sign of thawing. But it was warm enough in the garage to settle Callie into her car seat, to haul all the heavy garment bags into the sleek-lined SUV she probably wouldn’t have much longer.

  She’d need to find enough money to buy a secondhand car. A good, safe, child-friendly car. A minivan, she thought, as she backed out of the garage.

  She drove carefully. The roads here had been well plowed, but winter did its damage however exclusive the neighborhood, and there were potholes.

  She didn’t know anyone here. The winter had been so harsh, so cold, her circumstances so overwhelming, she’d stayed in more than going out. And Callie caught that nasty cold. The cold, Shelby remembered, that had kept them home when Richard took the trip to South Carolina. The trip that was supposed to be a family winter break.

  They would’ve been with him on the boat, and hearing her daughter chattering to Fifi, it didn’t bear thinking about. Instead she concentrated on negotiating traffic, and finding the consignment shop.

  She transferred Callie to her stroller and, cursing the biting wind, dragged the top three bags out of the car. As she fought to open the shop door, keep the bags from sliding and block Callie from the worst of the wind, a woman pulled open the door.

  “Oh, wow! Let me give you a hand.”

  “Thank you. They’re a little heavy so I should—”

  “I’ve got them. Macey! Treasure trove.”

  Another woman—this one very pregnant—stepped out from a back room. “Good morning. Well, hello, cutie,” she said to Callie.

  “You got a baby in your tummy.”

  “Yes, I do.” Laying a hand over it, Macey smiled at Shelby. “Welcome to Second Chances. Do you have some things for us to consider?”

  “I do.” A quick glance around showed Shelby racks and shelves of clothes and accessories. And a very tiny area dedicated to men’s clothes.

  Her hopes sank.

  “I haven’t had a chance to come in before, so I wasn’t sure what you . . . Most of what I brought in are suits. Men’s suits and shirts and jackets.”

  “We don’t get nearly enough menswear.” The woman who’d let her in tapped the garment bags she’d laid on a wide counter. “Is it all right to take a look?”

  “Yes, please.”

  “You’re not from around here,” Macey commented.

  “Oh, no. I guess not.”

  “Are you visiting?”

  “We— I live here in Villanova right now, just since December, but—”

  “Oh my goodness! These are gorgeous suits. Pristine condition so far, Macey.”

  “Size, Cheryl?”

  “Forty-two Regular. And there must be twenty of them.”

  “Twenty-two,” Shelby said, and linked her fingers together. “I have mo
re in the car.”

  “More?” both women said together.

  “Shoes—men’s size ten. And coats and jackets, and . . . My husband—”

  “Daddy’s clothes!” Callie announced when Cheryl hung another suit on a holding rack. “Don’t touch Daddy’s clothes with sticky hands.”

  “That’s right, baby. Ah, you see,” Shelby began, looking for the right way to explain. Callie solved it for her.

  “My daddy went to heaven.”

  “I’m so sorry.” One hand on her belly, Macey reached out, touched Callie’s arm.

  “Heaven’s pretty,” Callie told them. “Angels live there.”

  “That’s absolutely right.” Macey glanced at Cheryl, nodded. “Why don’t you go out, get the rest?” she told Shelby. “You can leave— What’s your name, cutie?”

  “Callie Rose Foxworth. This is Fifi.”

  “Hello, Fifi. We’ll watch Callie and Fifi while you bring the rest in.”

  “If you’re sure . . .” She hesitated, then asked herself why two women—one of them about seven months along—would run off with Callie in the time it took her to get to the car and back. “I’ll only be a minute. Callie, you be good. Mama’s just getting something out of the car.”

  • • •

  THEY WERE NICE, Shelby thought later as she drove off to try local banks. People were usually nice if you gave them the chance to be. They’d taken everything, and she knew they’d taken more than maybe they might have but Callie had charmed them.

  “You’re my lucky charm, Callie Rose.”

  Callie grinned around the straw of her juice box, but kept her eyes glued to the backseat DVD screen and her ten millionth viewing of Shrek.

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  Six banks later, Shelby decided the luck may have run out for the day. And her baby needed lunch and a nap.

  Once she had Callie fed, washed and tucked in—and the tucking-in part always took twice as long as she hoped—she geared up to face the answering machine and the voice mail on her cell phone.

  She’d worked out payment plans with the credit card companies, and felt they’d been as decent as she could expect. She’d done the same with the IRS. The mortgage lender had agreed to a short sale, and one of the messages was from the realtor wanting to set up the first showings.